Newfound Joy

I've been kind of putting off writing this post, but mostly because there's just been so much going on. Little did I know that, when I was writing the last post we published on this blog, I was already pregnant. About a week later, we got a positive pregnancy test.

I'm now halfway through my pregnancy, and all things considered, things are going very well. I had a very rough first trimester. I was extremely sick, lost a bunch of weight (I still haven't gained anything during my pregnancy...though you can't tell by looking at me), and had some bleeding going on. But we are having a healthy baby boy, and we couldn't be more thrilled.

I do feel as if I've been robbed of enjoying my pregnancy because of my past. I'm starting to relax now, but there's still this constant underlying fear. What if something goes wrong? What if I have another one snatched away from me? But every time we go to the doctor, he's bigger and he couldn't be more perfect. He's healthy. He's active--so active. I'm not getting much rest from his moving all night, and he's active during the day, too.

But anyway, needless to say, we're excited. I don't think we'll ever stop grieving for our losses, but this baby is already such a joy to us. I really can't wait to meet him.

Thanks for all of your support.